35 weeks and 3 days

It is right about now where the short road to the end begins. In less than 2 weeks the baby will be full term and in les than 5 weeks I will have reached overdue territory! While I have been most pleasantly in denial for a very long tiome about giving birth it is at teis special time that reality starts to kick in.

I have collected many expereinces to date and all of them so different that the whole expereince of bringing a child into the world seems more mysterious than it ever did. It seems to be a life expereince that is overwhelming both mentally and spiritually and at the same time a real physically wrenching experience.

I am somewhat comfortably full with my wee one inside me, rihgt now and I have forgotten to some extent what it feels like to not feel pregnant. My legs are restless in the evening, my pelvis feels as if it is breaking and I seem to have become accomstomed to the pressure on my bladder.

Visiting with the doctor today she explained to me tha tyou were in a totally differnt space when you give birth. I have heard other people say they felt powerful giving birth and others describe it as hell. I can't help but wonder what will giving bith be like for me.

I have hired a doula - Cathy. This should take the pressure off of the hubby to be the sole support, and it will give me agreater measure of confidence that I will have what I need when I needed to make it as good as it can be. But htere is so much mystery around what my own birth expereince will be.

There seems to be a mystical space around the life expereince of birth. It is like a gift that is unique to each woman. I have yet to meet a woman that can fully recount all that the experience entails - there seem to be moments that are remembered.

Soon I will be off work and spending my time preparing for the birth as best I can. I think that's all you can do...