Week 10 - Look Mom I'm a Fetus now!

So, junior is now a fetus.

I am still exhausted. People at work have been noticing that this draggyness has been prolonged, but I doubt that anyone would suspect.

I have been good - watching what I am eating...but definately not excercising enough. It is far too cold for a walk that's for sure (minue 44 yesterday!). I may have to join a Gym or rec centre. Maybe, Alan will go with me.

No one seems to talk about all the conflicting feelings you get - it is just assumed you are a glowing package of motherhood. Well for me, that's not true.

For example, I really have no interest in other people's children - even less now that before. Someone brought in their 2 week old baby today...all I could think was - gawd please don't cry. And really didn't want to get too close less it become too real for me right now.

Looking forward to Christmas, but not travelling. I am already exhausted just thinking about the travel. Strangely, I am not feeling ready to tell the whole family that we are expecting, and I am not sure why. Hmmmnnnn. Drawing a blank.

Maybe it is that I am having to go through a MASSIVE transformation and I really just don't want people to press to hard on the bruises. I really hate it when people call me "Mom" or "mommy" for example. I have not become a mom, and I am desperately trying to get my head around what that means. I am not looking forward to the attention, advice, and warnings about how much my life will change and how"you won't be able to do THAT anymore". Hopefully people willl just be happy and leave it at that.

It is just overwhelming - maybe that's it.